Just For Me

Summer Goals Just For Me
If we can work it into our schedules, I want to take a road trip, and spend the day with a wonderful sweet friend. We love to scrapbook, and have had several scrapbook days. I would like to do that again - just for me.

In the midst of decluttering and organizing, I would like to be able to get to my desk, and have things right there at hand to scrapbook. And do a challenge with a group. There are several around. Do a layout a day. Do some digitally. But, do it with a mission — a purpose. To organize my pictures, and have an end goal for each photo album. Right now it is just so open ended. When I go to scrap, I have no clue to what I’m going to do. Like everything else in my life, it lacks organization and needs some attention.

I want to get into a routine of spending quiet time with God — just for me. I am so lost in my clutter and chaos of my world, its not wonder no one is gettign through, and everything and everyone is slipping away. And yet, despite the selfish “me, me, me” world I seem to live in, I do need to balance everythign out, and that does include some “me” time. I want to work towards that special day spent with my friend. I want to be able to enjoy the day. Not just her company and the things we will be doing … but to actually physically and emotionally enjoy it I can’t say that if we did this tomorrow I would. The last few times we have gone shopping, (David and me, or Ethan and me) — I have been miserable. I can’t stand to look at anything for more than a few minutes at a time. Shopping with my friend, scrapping with my friend — I want it to be an enjoyable day, not one that wears me out within a few minutes. I want it to be a day of celebration. With her busy summer, we already know its going to be mid to late July before we will be able to do “a day”. That is workable for me. That is about 6 weeks to get a weight loss, walking program in place. 6 weeks can make a world of difference.

I want to do this …. for me.

Feeling better — will open a whole new world up to me. It breaks my heart when my grandson says “I want to go home with grandma Carolyn” …. and I have to tell him no. Because I’m too tired. Or I know I can’t keep up with him.

I want to feel better — for him.

And by doing that — its for me too — cuz I just love that little guy, and he deserves a better grandma than the one he has gotten for awhile.

So somewhere along the line, I will do an entry or two, and lists some specific things I want to do — Just for me. They will include my friend. My DIL. My grandson. My son. My husband. My God.

And… me… just some alone time to reflect — on how far I’ve come.

I want to read more.

I want to crochet more. Maybe make a baby blanket. Definately make another prayer shawl…but that comes under the “servants heart” category. But sometimes, the best thing you can do for yourself is to do something for others.