Dreams
Posted by Prairierose on Jul 14, 2006dream ( P ) Pronunciation Key (drm)
n.
1. A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
2. A daydream; a reverie.
3. A state of abstraction; a trance.
4. A wild fancy or hope.
5. A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration: a dream of owning their own business.
6. One that is exceptionally gratifying, excellent, or beautiful: Our new car runs like a dream.
n.
—> 1. The purpose toward which an endeavor is directed; an objective. See Synonyms at intention.
2. Sports.
1. The finish line of a race.
2. A specified structure or zone into or over which players endeavor to advance a ball or puck.
3. The score awarded for such an act.
3. Linguistics.
1. A noun or noun phrase referring to the place to which something moves.
2. See patient.
And yet, are dreams the same thing? Or are dreams a little larger, a little harder to obtain?
At the rate I’m going, cleaning off the 2nd desk in the computer room, something I really want to get done, should be a goal. But as long as I have wanted to do it, and its not gotten done, its quickly becoming a “dream”.
I have a list of things I would like to achieve. We talk about making dreams come true. Is a dream a dream when its still in our head. But once we put it out there, and start to make it come true, it becomes a goal?
See what I mean? so let me go in a different direction. With what instantly popped up in my head when I saw that the theme would be “dream”.
THE DREAM
There she is again. My mom. Gosh. I have missed her so much, but there she is. Standing right there. Laughing. Talking to me. Whatever what I thinking? what have I done? I’ve given away all of her belongings. Her apartment is rented out. The life insurance was spent on funeral costs and a head stone. And yet, there she is. With no place to live, no money, nothing.
How am I going to correct this? I want her to come live with me. I dont’ want to let her out of my sight.
I thought she had died. I was there. When her speech started to slur. Her eyes rolling back. The doctors rushing me out of the room, telling me maybe I should go call family. A fancy excuse to get me out of the room so I wouldn’t have to watch them work on my mom.
Man. What a nightmare — and such a long one. It was so real, I went through the motions of a greiving daughter. Of burying her. Working through a lifetime of accumulated possessions, learning to live life in a new and different way. One that was void of my mother. I had never had to live that way.
But … there she is. What a relief.
*BEEP **BEEP ***BEEEP **BEEP
The alarm clock goes off. I open my eyes, and look around. She’s gone. She’s not there.
It was ….. just a dream.
July 14th, 2006 at 5:31 pm
It is so hard to comprehend. I can understand it a little and sympathize with you. Aren’t you glad that you can write this all down?
July 14th, 2006 at 7:38 pm
My mum died 18 months ago and I still dream that she’s alive. I was talking to another lady whose mum died recently and she asked me if I had dreams too.
It seems to be something that happens. God Bless.
July 14th, 2006 at 9:27 pm
I’ve had similar dreams but none about anything that serious. You must miss your mom so much. I have dreamed about my Granpa since he died and he was alive, and I loved him dearly and really miss him, but that’s not the same as your mom. Thanks for sharing a really touching (if not confusing) dream.
Funny, you started your carnival entry just like mine….just went a completely different way!
July 16th, 2006 at 8:33 am
Reading my way through the BC Carnival!
Great post, so sorry about your mom. I almost lost my mom in 2001, she had a brain aneurysm. Thankfully she made it through.
July 16th, 2006 at 11:08 am
*hugs* Lovely carnival post, thanks for sharing! I would have something, but a disaster of chocolate pudding got in my way…..
July 16th, 2006 at 11:36 am
That is a sad dream….I still have dreams about my grandmother (who I was very close to). She passed away 12 years ago - and whenever I dream about her, I wake up feeling all warm and fuzzy….
July 16th, 2006 at 9:02 pm
Wow, that is so sad. I can imagine if I lost someone suddenly I would have the same type of dream. Thanks for sharing that.