I have been struggling with this, actually for awhile. To the point of feeling anxiety, and it shouldn’t be that way. Granted, part of it is just a physical part of what is going on with me … my heart being out of rhythm, and that produces an “anxious” feeling, although you don’t have anything to be anxious about (unless you are stressing out about your heart being out of rhythm. But that is a whole other entry for another time). Things are changing in the blogging world, esp. for us that do paid blogging. I read something interesting last night that really made sense and made me question my role in doing paid blogging. And yet, I’m not ready to give it up. Maybe streamline it some. One thing I do want to do, is get a grasp on the various blogs I have, and what their purpose is. Some of them already do — Focus on Kansas is my photography blog. No problem there. And Weighing Me Down is about health and weight issue (note: I’ve changed it to weight issues, not weight loss. Maybe if I blog about weight ISSUES, I can get to the core of why I am presently out of control in this area). So that blogs, I pretty much have a clear vision for what I want from them, and follow through. And even A Second Look, even though I haven’t blogged but a couple entries there, I have a clear vision of what I want from it. I just haven’t followed through, but I haven’t given up.

Where I struggle is with my 2 main blogs. This one and Quiet Time. I do know Quiet Time is ad-free. I will never do any paid blogging over there. For the past few months, I have tried sepeating the two … doing paid blogging here, and my “daily life” stuff over there. But, in the shower this morning, it, for some reason, became crystal clear to me what I need to do. I’m going about this backwards. This blog was a “main blog” long before paid blogging hit the scene. And I have lost myself along the way. I’ve lost the focus of what blogging is about. Just as I feel like I have lost myself in the real world, I have also done so in the blogging world. Again. Focus. Goal. Vision. You have to have all of those things to move forward in life, in a happy and content way. And its been a long time since I have truly been happy and content.

I sat down and made a list. It makes sense. And it will work.

QUIET TIME:
What does quiet time mean to me? Quiet time is time spent with God. It is also time when I have time to myself to do things I enjoy. So. My Quiet Time W/Carolyn blog should consist of this: God … Bible studies, Faith Walk Thoughts. Christian Women Online participation. W@H participation. Blog Your Blessings. Sunday Seven. All of these things would compliment the blog, give me lots of writing material, and make the blog what I want it to be. Also, visit more, be more consistent about leaving comments, and make it all come full circle with friends.

A PRAIRIE VIEW
This is where my everyday blogging should come in. Blog like I used to. I still try to do everyday entries, but have been doing them over at Quiet Time. And, then struggle with the paid blogging interium posts. Go back to the basics. Blog like I did before paid blogging, when I just had one blog. Which means, everyday stuff, fun memes, just a hodge podge of stuff. Yes, even book blogging. Where I take a “guided journal” type book, and work through it. That was a part of “who I was”, and for this blog to be natural and a part of “who I am”, that is a part of it.

Makes sense to me, and I just feel like everything has fallen into place. Now. To just make it all work. I can, if I just try and apply all of these things in this way. Blogging … writing… has always been a part of who I am. Its time I sort things out, and find that piece of me that has been missing for awhile and covered up by the paid blogging obession. Its time for balance.