This year I want to find true pleasure. I want to find meaning and satisfaction in what I do. Whether it is at work, or at home, blogging, or cleaning, What can I do today that will bring me pleasure? I need to find consistency and order in my life. That would bring me great pleasure. I feel like my life is so out of balance. I would like to start small, with 2 activities, and make them a consistent part of my day.

One would involve my personal life. The other would involve organization of some kind. Just a few days ago, we cleaned out the refrigerator. From top to bottom, taking all the shelves out, wiping down the walls. Its silly, but I have gone to the fridge several times since then, and just opened the door to look. Not to get any food, but just to soak in the organization of it. I found joy in that. I love blogging, but I have create chaos among the ranks. But, each blog does have its purpose. So, before I give on “them”, I want to try a bit more consistency with a routine. To log in, do an entry at each, whether its paid or not. And then log off. I can surf later, but I have GOT to get that “get in there, do what needs to be done, and get out” routine.

I know, I know. You should blog for the joy of it; which most of the time I do. But again, I need some consistency, some boundaries, some structure. Otherwise, I find myself wasting time, and getting nothing accomplished. I find comfort in organization. And if I can’t organize something I enjoy doing, then what is the purpose? Such small steps, and yet, miles away.

I start there. Small, but obtainable steps. Towards organization. Towards find a small amount of pleasure each day. You would think it would be so simple. But. Its not. And so, I have to start somewhere.